I’m not sure if you all know but I have been diagnosed with Multiple Sclerosis for quite some time, about a few years before Real. This is why I dedicate most my books to the good things in life, like music, or second chances, because really, every day we’re able to live our lives to the fullest is a gift like that.
I woke up one morning unable to speak or to use my right hand. I waved off my hubby and my kids with my left and then kept trying to move my right hand: super tingly.
I called a friend and asked her: ‘Hey when you were on this new diet, did you get a numb right hand and tongue?’
She could hardly understand me; my tongue was partly paralyzed, along with the right side of my face. She texted her neurologist who summoned me immediately to the hospital.
My husband came back for me, freaking out. A week in intensive care and tests confirmed multiple scars and new lesions in my brain – this was followed by huge shots of steroids, anti depressants and a recommendation to stay out of the sun and stress free.
During the next month, I would awaken at night while my arm moved on its own like a robotic limb with its own mind. I couldn’t move it myself, but as the nerve repaired, it jerked sometimes. It scared me. I would sit in my tub and look at my toes and think of how marvelous it feels to actually feel your toes, move your toes. Two months later, I could write my name again. Like a schoolgirl, it took me minutes to get four letters down but my husband always waited patiently for me to do so.
My signature and handwriting were permanently changed, I guess brain lesions do that. I was told I’d never know when it would come back, they call it The Silent Disease. I was advised to be realistic, not to kid myself in thinking that I would be back to normal ever again, because when I had another episode, which was likely to come, I’d be devastated. “Just wait for it and store every good thing that you can in your toolbox because that’s what you will use to pull yourself up when it comes back.”
I guess this is why I love writing about fighters. We all fight for something in our lives, love, health, respect, forgiveness.
March is MS Awareness month, and in February I have my last Real series book out, of which I will be donating a percentage of sales to the NationalMsSociety.Org.
MS is a disease like many others, without a real cure, but with many many hopefuls who hang on every day like champions, hoping for one. So if you’re one of my readers, and planned to pick up Legend, then thank you so much in advance! Thank you so much for your support, not just for my work and characters, but also this cause.
Love you and Happy Holidays!